My foster mother did everything to prove me wrong. Jealous, a psychologist would say many years later. But what do I know.<\/p>\n
If only I gave a little more. Be a little kinder, more capable? If I maxed out the grades? Just responded to summons. If I did all the cooking, everything cleaned up afterwards without prompting. Didn’t want anything. Didn’t sing, because they hated when I did. I, who loved it, had a talent for it. Like I didn’t see that grain of rice on the floor when I was sweeping the kitchen, how could I be so stupid? It was just to take the consequences of that, that became my foster father’s task. I was then six years old.<\/p>\n
I quickly learned not to make the same mistakes again.<\/p>\n
We were a total of six children but my new mother had seen Cinderella in me. A docile, desperate girl and\u2026? I had to take care of everything. Never good enough. If I didn’t have time to clean the whole house of 300 square meters in the half hour notice I was given before the spontaneous guests would arrive, then there was a family meeting afterwards about my ineptitude. In the best case.<\/p>\n
The stress and pressure were constant. In between I would sit quietly in my room. Not meeting friends. At least not outside the organization. Sometimes it let go of the reins so that outwardly it looked good. Then I hung out with my friends. Felt the sweetness of freedom. Be myself and be appreciated for it. Outwardly I was happy, laughing out loud and not least at my own jokes.<\/p>\n
No one was told what was going on behind closed doors. Either what my new mother or my new father did. They had taken on different roles, and both were devastating.<\/p>\n
If I survive this, then I will be free.
\nI have to survive because I had promised my mom to take care of my little brothers. If I don’t survive, I’ll never see her again.<\/p>\n
Hold on Atefeh.
\nSo, I persevered.
\nAtefeh Sebdani\u2019s Face Book, June 14th, 2024<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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